It feels so different now, things just aren't going the way I want it to. I just wanted to know something for myself. You see, that's why I asked you in the first place, because I did believe you that's the whole point, but the fact that you said the total opposite to me after a while it made me wonder. I'm not trying to do anything to jeopardize us and what we have but I just needed this for myself. Because I didn't want to live the whole relationship knowing that you just said that to me to make me believe you, because that's not the way I want to live, that's not the way I want to see you as, because that was not the person I thought you were, and knew you were. I just wanted the truth, that's why I asked you so that whatever thoughts I had about you could go back to the way they were,so that I wouldn't have any negative thoughts and feelings about you, about us. Because I don't want us to be like that, to live in lies, because that's not how I knew us to be, we are supposed to be different, and that's why I wanted to restore that. I wasn't trying to do anything more.
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What are you trying to do? What are you running away from? Because you thought I didn't trust you? You know I trusted you, with my whole heart that's why I had to ask you myself, so I can find out for myself what was really going on. I wasn't going to let this pass like I usually do because It was bugging me, like actually ripping me apart. I mean all this time you think you know something but you really don't, how do you think that feels? Yeah, maybe I misunderstood you, but maybe you didn't explain it to me in the first place, maybe that's why I was feeling that way. Usually you're not one to go without fixing things, because that's not like you RIGHT? but why are you running away from this? What, do you not want this anymore? Do you not want to work this out anymore? Why should I keep caring if you're not. I'm fighting through this storm alone
I did feel special when you said those things that's why It hurts that you didn't tell me the whole truth