I miss

I miss. The closeness of the family. How the families were so close, and I could tell them anything. Just like brothers and sisters, we would do everything together. I didn't have to feel uncomfortable every single time I would step into a room with them, or ever have that certain feeling to be careful with what I do. They've seen my best and worst and I think I'm only feeling this way because I'm adapting to new things, new changes, new people. I miss being close to the family, them loving me and taking care of me. They knew me as me, they loved me because of me, and not because I was with you. I think it's because I'm not feeling the certain connection I got, I guess because they're not you guys, it's not the same so why do i compare? It's the feeling I'm comparing. How happy I am when I'm with them. I missed them asking how I was because they wanted to, because I was a part of the family, until now..even if. I'm not saying I'd rather have them, because I wouldn't. I just miss. I'm adapting to new things, new changes, and I understand that I have to go through this..but I just wish sometimes you know? This has nothing to do with you, I promise. I just miss the company.