Just a little bit in the in and unable to get to the out, like I've been sucked dry and I'm just stuck, helpless, useless and i can't control myself. How was I to have known that I'd still be in the same place I was but only worse. I've tried looking for different alternatives, different routes to fix this mess I've allowed myself to become a part of, but yet each step I take, each move I attempt to make leads me right back to where I started, right back to who I let myself believe I have forgotten. And yet, all the signs are there, the negativeness, the hopelessness, it says it all, shows it all.. but my heart won't allow me to move away? why? Because he's no you, not him, not him, and not even him.
and that's why I have to get away. Even If I don't understand it yet, I will.