How do I express myself? How do I begin to explain? This has always been a hang up for myself and honestly it hurts like a bitch. People don't know how much I've cried about this, How many times I ask myself WHY I have to be this way, why I can't seem to get to that certain point, Why for some reason no matter how much I've tried It just won't happen. tbhdgebyddgobndgtbldgibkdgebungmudgbesd.. no matter what i do, there, happy? Now don't fucking think I try to do this on purpose, because If only I could I would change things so things were different, but they aren't..and I just have to live with it. Maybe that's why I sdbsdgetdgetdgldbe.. because I have no other choice.